Take a deep breath, Elan.
"Cute Without the 'E'" by Taking Back Sunday
There is one thing are two things I absolutely despise above all else. 1) To be made to feel as if I were unimportant and can be easily left out of things, trivialized, and ignored. and 2) To be looked upon as if I were a little child, and just plain stupid and nieve.
There is probably a third thing, but my brain's out the window right now.
I am just hitting my head on the wall for being so dern stupid.. and yes, nieve. (I know, I just said I hated that.. but, it's when others act as if I am always stupid/nieve.)
I hate it when people can just leave you at the drop of a hat for someone else. I hate it when this person only looks upon me as someone that's not worth their time unless they have no other friends that happen to be free. I hate it that this person can just yap and yap about his problems when he doesn't see hat he has.. what he could have, if he wanted to open up his eyes. I hate it that I always feel like second best. I wish he'd appreciate me, I wish he'd act as if I am a real person, complete with my own set of feelings and problems. I want him to actually want to hang out with me, not just use me as someone he can have to walk beside him so he won't look some lonely freak in the mall. I wish he could just look past his own self for once.
God I miss Allie. I'm leaving too many emails in her inbox.
Posted by everythinguarent at December 16, 2003 10:46 PM